CHAPTER 2
So it's 2.05AM Sunday 30th May 2004 and there's now less than a week to go. Surrounded by every increasing piles of discarded cardboard and plastic I stumble towards departure with an ever decreasing sense of reality. I remember once writing somewhere; "it never get's weird enough for me". I guess the words themselves don't mean much, it's what they're hotwired to, things words can't do by themselves, but it feels like I'm arriving at some kind of cut-off point, a point where it all comes down to throwing onself at the mercy of the elements, and trusting those that, one hopes, can safely navigate them. This is like my first solo expedition as a broadcast TV road warrior carrying all the battery chargers, spare clips plus all the junk you need to make you feel like it's all really going to work better than the guy who just bought an old handycam from from some pawnbroker in Observatory. In the middle of the night it's all crap because I just tried fitting everything into this humoungously expensive photographer's case I bought today. Ok, it fits, except I didn't think the backpack part of it out very well and since don't intend hiking down the Amazon with two cameras a laptop and a tripod on my back, I'll have to swap it for a model that doesn't shriek "overkill" at me back in the studio. Yes, it's come down to this and I'm tempted to upload a a 360 degree view of my office, which is like pericope down. Earlier I spent an hour messing around with this wide angle lense I swapped a 256MB chip for. OK, I did buy a 512MB chip for the Fuji in the last week, so I'm still ahead, or am I? Besides all of this, I'm on the run from the Receiver of Revenue but hopefully I'll also have that sorted next week. If not, no one will be able to get hold of me for weeks, which is beginning to look like a better proposition than staying behind and coping with all the chaos I've caused. I reckon it'll be easier once I've left because instead of just
'feeling' that I'm not really here, I 'really' won't be here, but then,
will I really be there? Hmmm..it's been a while since I had a late night session.
Check the ship. The 1 MB video is from a recce I did last time she passed through.
